My View from Emma's Hospital Room

I probably should have started this 2 months ago.  The words are stuck inside my head but they need to come out.  This is not for the faint of heart. This isn't for someone to judge. I'm going to say things here that people may not like.  I am going to be raw and honest. I need to heal. This  is NOT about me. This is about me being a mom to a sick child.  I've seen things that no parent should ever see.  I need to remember all that happened and put it somewhere so it can stop haunting my dreams and preventing us from moving forward. When we took Emma to the hospital on August 2, 2022 I knew we were not going to come back home that night, I knew she was going to be admitted. What I did not know was that 46 days later we would still be here.  This has come with so many speed bumps and unexpected turns that there was no way for anyone to be prepared. I've seen things I wish I never saw, but cannot unsee. I've learned things I never imagined understanding,...